theskywentblack

Nothing can stay good forever. That's like saying that milk will never spoil, a flower will never die, everything will be bad, and everything will be good. Our next mission; getting used to such a thing. 

Currently, it's bad. I feel like I'm losing everyone, but by choice. I get so exhausted from all of the drama that they start, from all of the fighting, that I want to simply lock myself away for a few months and be forgotten. I really couldn't care less if such a thing did happen. I feel so down, so tired all of the time. I have no ability to have fun anymore. I don't know if I'm just moving on from the kid stage or what, but all I want to do anymore is just sit down with people and have deep conversations. With my friends, that definitely isn't their idea of fun and what am I to do? After all of this shit, all of the hardships I've finally made it thru, my body doesn't want to work properly and it is beginning to refuse. I feel so beat up, so betrayed from everybody. I'm starting to give up on anyone and everyone, I don't want to make new friends, it's too fucking exhausting when I know it will all end in pain, yaknow? It's just not worth it anymore, I'm content with what I have and I have no strength to make more out of my life. I hope you're all happy... 






On a side note: he did hit me, but the more he denies it, the more I wish it never happened.